Jamie left late Friday morning, and I was so sad. I was dreading her departure, and I was thinking if I continue to cuddle with her that morning, she would change her mind about leaving. She didn’t. It was worth a try, right?
Ever since, I’ve been in a funk. I’ve tried to get out of that funk by hanging out with people that I haven’t hung out with in a while. But in the back of my mind, I still think about her. I think it will get easier once school starts back up, because I will be so preoccupied by school.
Last night me and Jamie went to a New Year’s Eve party one of our friends were having. We stayed for a couple of hours, got slightly tipsy, then decided to go home, and spend the last hour of the decade, together. It was so peaceful and lovely, ringing in the new year, just the two of us. I felt like everything was going to be ok. I felt safe even. It was definitely one of the best New Year’s Eve I’ve ever had. It totally topped all of the times I was drunk and wasted, because I was with someone who I truly care about. Somebody who loves me just for me. I, for the first time, felt safe and comforted. Happy New Year everyone!
Today is Christmas. It was a good day. It definitely was a white Christmas, although I didn’t enjoy shoveling the heavy, slosh-filled snow. I got plenty of presents. Many of them were Vikings related (hooray!), and I got Lost season 5 and Desperate Housewives season 5. The meals were my fave. For breakfast we had pancakes, eggs and turkey bacon. For dinner we had roast, mashed potatoes, gravy, broccoli with cheese, and dinner rolls. And for dessert? Cheesecake! My fave! Me and Jamie watched the double-header basketball games on ABC. Both of our teams won :). We also watched the football game and game 163 of the Twins vs the Tigers.
All in all, it was a good day. Good food, good company. That’s what it’s all about. It honestly made me feel all warm and fuzzy inside.
It’s Christmas Eve. I’m not really into it like I have been in the past. Maybe it’s because I’m getting older, or I had so much fun celebrating Hanukkah, that Christmas really doesn’t mean that much to me anymore. I just feel like I’m going through the motions right now. I think I will feel a little bit better when this is all over, as crazy as it sounds. But I’m trying really hard to get excited for Christmas, at least for Jamie’s sake. She’s celebrating Christmas with me and my mom this year. This is her first time. It’s kind of fun seeing it through her eyes, though. It’s like watching a kid’s first Christmas. Maybe tomorrow will be better. Or maybe I just need to watch “A Christmas Story” and get in the spirit again.
My winter break has officially started! It actually started at 11:45am, Monday morning when I handed in my very last paper of the semester. Such a relief!
I actually spent the day with Jamie’s sister Jeremie. Now, we are not very close, but we wanted to take this opportunity to spend some one-on-one time together. It was pretty good. We saw the movie Precious together. Quite sad, but still a good movie. I enjoyed my time with Jeremie. I felt like we bonded a little bit more. Maybe because it was the movie. I felt like we wouldn’t have had the same bond if we went to see, Boondock Saints 2 for instance. Which is a really great movie I saw on Friday.
Now I can chill out, relax, and enjoy the next month of carefree, homework-free existence. Mozel tof!
Wednesday marked the first official cold/snow day of the year. I think it got up to 10 degrees today with strong winds, and lots of snow. I had the joy of trekking around in it all morning and for part of the afternoon, and also late in the evening. It seemed like every time I went out there it got colder and colder, it was windier and windier. Luckily for, it’s going to be like this for the next few days. Rad. Gotta love being a Minnesotan, right?
I just had an interesting conversation with Jamie about how emotionally charged I get after my team loses. Now, it’s normal to feel sad or bummed after your team loses, but I apparently feel very angry. To the point I start walking around mumbling to myself, slamming doors and being short with people. My mom seems to also agree with Jamie about how upset I get when my team loses. She told me that she knows by now the signs that my team lost, such as prolonged silence on my end, my slamming things, etc. So she avoids me at all costs for about a half hour.
Jamie also “analyzed” how I handle different kinds of loses. If my team suffers an upset, I start doing all of the things that I’ve listed above. If my team didn’t suffer an upset, and they just lost, I’m just really quiet and I don’t express outward anger.
I never realized this about myself and I find it interesting that other people have picked up on this and know my ways. It’s frightening and intriguing that people know my behaviors better than I do.