I Miss Jamie

Jamie left late Friday morning, and I was so sad.  I was dreading her departure, and I was thinking if I continue to cuddle with her that morning, she would change her mind about leaving.  She didn’t.  It was worth a try, right?

Ever since, I’ve been in a funk.  I’ve tried to get out of that funk by hanging out with people that I haven’t hung out with in a while.  But in the back of my mind, I still think about her.  I think it will get easier once school starts back up, because I will be so preoccupied by school.

-India

New Year’s Eve

Last night me and Jamie went to a New Year’s Eve party one of our friends were having.  We stayed for a couple of hours, got slightly tipsy, then decided to go home, and spend the last hour of the decade, together.  It was so peaceful and lovely, ringing in the new year, just the two of us.  I felt like everything was going to be ok.  I felt safe even.  It was definitely one of the best New Year’s Eve I’ve ever had.  It totally topped all of the times I was drunk and wasted, because I was with someone who I truly care about.  Somebody who loves me just for me.  I, for the first time, felt safe and comforted.  Happy New Year everyone!

-India

Christmas Day

Today is Christmas.  It was a good day.  It definitely was a white Christmas, although I didn’t enjoy shoveling the heavy, slosh-filled snow.  I got plenty of presents.  Many of them were Vikings related (hooray!), and I got Lost season 5 and Desperate Housewives season 5.  The meals were my fave.  For breakfast we had pancakes, eggs and turkey bacon.  For dinner we had roast, mashed potatoes, gravy, broccoli with cheese, and dinner rolls.  And for dessert?  Cheesecake!  My fave!  Me and Jamie watched the double-header basketball games on ABC.  Both of our teams won :).  We also watched the football game and game 163 of the Twins vs the Tigers.

All in all, it was a good day.  Good food, good company.  That’s what it’s all about.  It honestly made me feel all warm and fuzzy inside.

-India

The Holiday Season

It’s Christmas Eve.  I’m not really into it like I have been in the past.  Maybe it’s because I’m getting older, or I had so much fun celebrating Hanukkah, that Christmas really doesn’t mean that much to me anymore.  I just feel like I’m going through the motions right now.  I think I will feel a little bit better when this is all over, as crazy as it sounds.  But I’m trying really hard to get excited for Christmas, at least for Jamie’s sake.  She’s celebrating Christmas with me and my mom this year.  This is her first time.  It’s kind of fun seeing it through her eyes, though.  It’s like watching a kid’s first Christmas.  Maybe tomorrow will be better.  Or maybe I just need to watch “A Christmas Story” and get in the spirit again.

-India

Winter Break! Ahh!!!

My winter break has officially started!  It actually started at 11:45am, Monday morning when I handed in my very last paper of the semester.  Such a relief!

I actually spent the day with Jamie’s sister Jeremie.  Now, we are not very close, but we wanted to take this opportunity to spend some one-on-one time together.  It was pretty good.  We saw the movie Precious together.  Quite sad, but still a good movie.  I enjoyed my time with Jeremie.  I felt like we bonded a little bit more.  Maybe because it was the movie.  I felt like we wouldn’t have had the same bond if we went to see, Boondock Saints 2 for instance.  Which is a really great movie I saw on Friday.

Now I can chill out, relax, and enjoy the next month of carefree, homework-free existence.  Mozel tof!

-India

First Cold Day of the Year

Wednesday marked the first official cold/snow day of the year.  I think it got up to 10 degrees today with strong winds, and lots of snow.  I had the joy of trekking around in it all morning and for part of the afternoon, and also late in the evening.  It seemed like every time I went out there it got colder and colder, it was windier and windier.  Luckily for, it’s going to be like this for the next few days.  Rad.  Gotta love being a Minnesotan, right?

India

Realizations About Myself

I just had an interesting conversation with Jamie about how emotionally charged I get after my team loses.  Now, it’s normal to feel sad or bummed after your team loses, but I apparently feel very angry.  To the point I start walking around mumbling to myself, slamming doors and being short with people.  My mom seems to also agree with Jamie about how upset I get when my team loses.  She told me that she knows by now the signs that my team lost, such as prolonged silence on my end, my slamming things, etc.  So she avoids me at all costs for about a half hour.

Jamie also “analyzed” how I handle different kinds of loses.  If my team suffers an upset, I start doing all of the things that I’ve listed above.  If my team didn’t suffer an upset, and they just lost, I’m just really quiet and I don’t express outward anger.

I never realized this about myself and I find it interesting that other people have picked up on this and know my ways.  It’s frightening and intriguing that people know my behaviors better than I do.

India

Brendan’s Birthday!

Yesterday was my buddy Brendan’s 21st birthday!  He’s our youngest CASH officer, and he is finally legal!  We went to this awesome brewery in downtown St. Paul.  Downtown St. Paul is so pretty at night.  Very classy, though I will always favor the Minneapolis side because I’m biased like that.  Word.  The restaurant was also classy, a lot different then your typical college bar.  Which is always super refreshing.

The drinks were good.  I had a oatmeal stout, 2 golden prairie blondes (love!) and a shot of tequila with peppermint schnopps.  All equally delicious, so I was slightly tipsy.

I had such a fun night.  The night seemed to have FLEW by!  I guess that’s what happens when you’re having fun. 🙂  And I managed not to get stabbed on my way back to Ryan’s car, which is always good.  Apparently, there was a gang running around stabbing random people as part of their gang initiation.  Creative, no?  Wasn’t really expecting that because I thought St. Paul was slightly classier than that, but I guess I’m wrong.  Ohs wells.

All in all, last night was pretty rad and I woke up with a slight headache this morning.  I blame the dark beer.  For some reason dark beer gives me a headache the morning after.  Tis okay, because that’s what Tylenol is for!

India

Senior Thesis… Take 2

I got my second draft of my Spanish senior thesis back on Monday.  I started revising it today.  I just did some pedigree stuff, mostly grammar and wrote some clarification sentences.  I haven’t really delved deep into it, yet.  I still have to rewrite my Introduction (again!), write a conclusion, and also include an appendix/notes page.  Tomorrow I will go to Folwell so I can utilize their sweet Spanish grammar and spelling software.  I’m hoping this will help me fix my grammar.  I want this paper to be as perfect as I can make it.

I think I’m in the home stretch, though.  The feedback I got from my professor this time around isn’t as bad as the first time.  Which is good, it means I’m improving.  I still have a ways to go, though.  I’m just relieved that I don’t have to do anything crazy like write it over again, which was one of my biggest fears.

I turn my paper in to undergo a third and final revision on Monday.  This revision will mostly focus on grammar and fluidity of the paper.  Once that revision is over, I’m on my own.  I will turn in my final paper when I give my oral presentation in class, which will be December 7th, or if I need more time, during finals week.

I’m feeling better about this paper, now that I know that I’m also done.  I’m just glad that I have a professor who will push me and force me to write it now, instead of the week before like other professors.  I was talking with a colleague of mine today, and she told me when she wrote her Spanish senior thesis, she didn’t start writing it until around this time.  She was shocked to find out how far along I am.  I’m just looking forward to being DONE with the project before finals week, so I can focus on other things. That’s the goal.  🙂

Laterz,

India

My Afternoon With Kendra!

Yesterday I spent the afternoon with my good friend, Kendra.  I hadn’t seen her since September when she moved in with her husband, so we had some serious catching up to do.  I told her about me and Jamie breaking up and how we got back together :).  I told her about our rugby season and how school was going. She told me that she’s going back to school next semester and I am so proud of her!  The reason why she dropped out this semester is because she was worried about being stressed out with the baby, the new house and being married, and having school on top of that.  Now she is extremely bored and wants to finish school.  Hopefully the baby won’t interfere too much because she’s due the end of February.

It was so good to see her.  I’ve been thinking about her a lot lately because we were so close, but since she got married, we haven’t talked as often, which I guess is understandable.  I just wished she were there for my rough times, but she’s here now and that’s all that matters!  We had so much fun reminiscing about the good old days.  I’m glad I have my friend back :).

India